Greetings Wobblers,
I wanted to be the first to say that I have a Dachshund size hole in my heart still, I will for the rest of my life. Leroy is doing his best to stay strong but he’s missing his little sister more and more each day.
I want everyone to know that it’s ok to hurt, it’s ok to feel sad or angry. For me personally, I have a hard time showing any emotion but losing our little Sweet Potato has broken me and I want to allow my hurt to hopefully open the doors for others to let their emotions out.
It’s not fun by any means but after crying night after night I’m finding the anger is decreasing, the sadness is still very much there but the process of healing is happening and I have to be patient.
Please, let yourself grieve. Let yourself cry. Let yourself feel the sadness and pain so you can allow yourself to get through it. The hurt will never go away but if I can learn to live without my Addie-Jo then I believe you too can heal enough to keep moving forward.
We’re all in this together and together we can heal.
Thank you for being apart of our community,
Ben
Thank you for sharing this. I stumbled across it quite by accident while looking for info to redeem a Groupon for one of your Wednesday night's Comedy Zone shows. But I believe I was meant to see it....see, my first born grandchild, my 17 year old grandson, Kaleb, whom I have raised most of his life since an infant, was shot and killed on April 12th. Best we can tell so far it was an ex-girlfriend jealous of the new girlfriend, who got her boyfriend and some friends to try and buy some weed from him to set him up to be robbed - and it went wrong. Some words were exchanged, the new boyfriend must have thought Kaleb was carrying, so when he snatched the weed and his phone, Kaleb went to kick his ass and the other kid shot him twice, killing him almost instantly. Then he and his friends grabbed the weed, the phone, and Kaleb's backpack and took off to divvy it all up.
So far only the kid who dumped the gun has been caught, though the police do know who the shooter is and have warrants out for him and others. But I am so freaking angry!! And that hole in my heart is so big and I don't know how I will ever get through/over this. This first kid was a juvenile and everything had to be hush-hush until he could be indicted by the Grand Jury and then brought back to Family Court and have a judge say that "Yes, he will be tried as an adult in Superior Court." And we had to protect this juvenile's identity during this time, we couldn't release any information about him, we were even limited to only myself and his mother in the courtroom while he had at least 6+ family members in there for him. The judge even called the prosecutor up to the bench and warned about him our attire - red tee-shirts with pictures of Kaleb that said "Do you believe in Karma?" a nickname he had been given by a friend and #Forever17, because it could be construed as us trying to influence the judge. Can you believe that?
But anyway, I guess I just needed someone who didn't know me or the circumstances to tell me it was ok. (I guess God or Kaleb knew though 😇)